well duh!?

walked around chaing mai today, took only about an hour to walk half
of the main city square, so you can get sense of how small a place
this. it is a welcome break from the frantic pace of bangkok, but
don't let that fool you in thinking you are not taking your life into your
own hands everytime you cross the road.

it seems that today in trying to find sanctuary and quiet in the heat i
was greeted only with the smirk of various golden Buddhas as they
reflected in their wisdom that which we are yet to discover, but which
we already know. in the smirk, i found a look saying you are looking
in the wrong place, you will not find it in temples, in aged mytical
or crazy old fools. look not in me but in you, perhaps that is why the
eye reflects as it does and does so infinitely.


so in some ways it seems quite fitting that i find that sanctuary that
i sought at the start of the day in the same place that i began it, in an
air conditioned internet cafe, at the technological altar that is the
keyboard. communicating with that other, outside of self and the self
all the same.

so now what for me? pause here for moment and then ... there really is
no "and then" though. all goes to plan i will be in japan before the week is out.